Welcome to my life Mary Kay

Before I moved to Houston in November, I was living in College Station Texas working at a salon called Urban Salon. There I worked for this super sweet woman named Rosanne. She introduced me to the wonderful world of Mary Kay Cosmetics. WAIT! STOP! Don't hate. I am not one of those annoying people who are crazy about selling there product. Okay, proceed. When I first learned about the product, I was not sold. It takes me a while to become a believer in something. So, she talked to me and talked to me about becoming a representative and I still wasn't behind the idea of becoming one of those annoying sales women. (not my thing!)

In November, Rosanne came to Houston for a Mary Kay breakfast seminar and she invited me to tag along. While there, I was definatly inspired but still had my reservations. So, I signed up but within 24 hours, I backed out. I got scared. Terrified actually. Fear and doubt crept in and took over. I listened to people who thought I was stupid for putting myself out there. I let people laugh at me and tell me I was silly. So, the doubt was there and I let it win.

I was afraid that I wouldn't succeed. So I stopped before I could fail. I didn't even try. Not even for 24 hours.

This past week we had a guest speaker at school teaching us about facials and makeup. Awesome. I love learning about new things, so I was definatly excited. Then I met her. Our guest speaker was a Mary Kay Director. Awesome. The fear crept in again. The doubt. But, something was different this time.

As she started talking about skin care, and makeup, I realized the look on my face was not that of someone who was afraid, or had doubt, but that of someone who was excited, thrilled, and enjoying herself.

I started to think and pray.

I realized that I can do anything I want to do.

I can do anything I set my mind on.

I have to set my mind on the things above.

The Lord knows the desires of my heart.

One of those desires is to make women feel beautiful and loved. I already know how to do that with hair, and I have always had the desire to learn more about skin care and makeup, so why not? Why not learn more about the #1 Cosmetics company in the world?

I listened some more and decided I was going to give it a huge try. I set up an appointment with Toya and Katie at Toya's house for Thursday. I went into the appointment still with doubt and fear that I would never be able to be as successful as these two woman. I would never be able to talk to people about this stuff. I would never be able to drive a pink cadillac.

I sat through that meeting, listening and learning and soaking it all in.

I realized that I CAN do it.

I am good at building relationships.

I am good at loving people.

I am good at engaging in conversation.

I am good at making people feel good.

God has given me so many gifts that I must put to good use.

I know that I can do it. With Jesus, ANYTHING is possible.

So, I have decided that I am going to be a Mary Kay representative.

I am going to do this job with excellence and I am going to be fabulous in it.

Just because this job isn't your typical after school job, doesn't mean I can't be successful in it.

I will do it and I will be great.

I will drive a pink cadillac one day. Who knows? That could happen in the next year.

God, Thank you for bringing this gift in my life. Do what you will with it. I will do my best to glorify You, Lord.

Thank you for the confidence you have given my life. Thank you for surrounding me with people who believe in me, people who love me.

Praying for you, friend, that you would chase your dream, that you would take a chance.

Much love,

B

Trusting God.

Last week I got a job offer from Kroger and I took it.

I really felt like the Lord provided in my time of need.

Yesterday, I got another job offer at a salon/spa/superstore called "Beauty Brands" and I have really been thinking about it. I went in today and they are offering me a little more money, which of course sounds great, but they can not guarantee me the hours that I need.

Kroger can.

I feel kind of sad because working at "BB" would definatly be a step in the direction of my career, but I feel like I have already committed to Kroger and given them my word. I have also kind of already told myself that I would stay there until I finished paying off some debt.

So, I have decided to stick with the grocery store.

Weird.

As self righteous as I am, the Lord is actually changing my heart and this is the first fruit I have seen of it.

He is humbling me.

PTL! This sister needs it. I do have junk, and my junk does stink. Humble me, Lord! KEEP GOING!

So, I am trusting Him. Trusting Him that He is going to give me self control with my spending and that He will give me a faithful heart.

Praying for you brothers and sisters, that your heart, too, will be transformed.

Much love!

B

To one of my favorite people in the world.

Mer.

Thank you for being the most incredible, selfless, loving friend any one could ever ask for.

God has seriously given you the gift of the best friend. No one else knows how to be a better friend than you are. Thank you for being there, always, when I need you. Thank you for listening to me vent while Im driving down the road. Thank you for letting me be myself. Thank you for putting up with my random outburst of song. Thank you for my random outburst of words. "Just say it!!" (hahahahha, ring a bell?)

Thank you for moving to Giddings, Texas just when I needed you. The Lord knew, He is so faithful. Thank you for sharing a room with me. ( I love our room) Thank you for talking boys with me. Thank you for bringing me toilet paper. Thank you for our golf cart adventures.

Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for sharpening me. Thank you for showing me a real friend. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for your accountability.

Thank you for being you.

You amaze me.

Your love for Jesus amazes me.

Happy Birthday sweet Mer Bear.

You are the best. Really.

No one can compare to the friend that you have been to me in the past 2 years.

I love you.

Have an awesome day!

Love,

Britt

A stress induced cry for help.

I am stressed.

Because I made a decision.

And did not think things through.

Or, really think at all.

And so, therefore, I am stressed.

This is like the 100th time that I have over committed myself in the past 2 months.

What the heck, Britt?

Do you not think before you say yes?

"Let your yes be yes, and your no be no."

Right?

I have officially become a back-peddler.

It stinks.

I have officially become someone I hate.

Of course.

Talk about being humbled.

So, the question of the day is:

"How do you remain a servant, and have an incredible work ethic, and not over commit yourself?"

I just dont know how to say no.

I stink at it.

I need help.

Jesus? Help. Please.

PTL!

I am now a proud employee of Kroger.

Praise the Lord!

It feels so good to have a job! I am more than thankful for the job, and even more thankful for the opportunity to bless people who don't know the Lord.

Im so happy!

I start on Friday and Saturday for training.

Thanks for praying, friends. You are all such a blessing.

Much love sisters.

B

Dear God,

Today I have a job interview at Kroger.

I know that I've been a jerk about working somewhere other than a salon.

Can you please forgive me?

Lord, I really need this job. I know You already know what I need.

My debt is piling.

Its overwhelming to me.

Father, thank you for loving me despite my inconsistency, my selfishness, my bitterness, and my irresponsibility.

You amaze me.

I pray that I would realize the magnitude of your love, everyday.

God, give me the words to say today as I talk to Maria at Kroger. Give her open ears and an open heart. I pray she would see my need and that you would speak to her heart. Bless her sweet heart.

Father, I need a positive attitude as I fill out more applications today. I can only do this with you.

"If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move."

Lord, give me faith.

I love you Father.

B

The difference between WANT and NEED.

So, I am going through this ridiculous stage in my life where I want all these beautiful things and then I make the mistake of looking and looking and looking, when guess what? I CAN NOT AFFORD IT. I don't have a job, so therefore, I can't exactly afford anything, especially a $200 faux fur vest. I really do want this beautiful vest that I first saw on The Rachel Zoe Project last season, but it is just not a reality right now.

The Lord is intent on humbling me right now. I have applied to a countless number of jobs in the Katy area, and have even interviewed for a handful of them, but have heard nothing but "No" (minus the crazy nannying gig).

At first I was only applying to the glamourous jobs that I have always been so great at, like at a salon. But now, I feel like Jesus is telling me to get over myself and fall on my knees. It is so freeing to know that He will provide for me and give me what I need, but that I have to do it His way. So, I have applied to hair salons, grocery stores, coffee shops, restaurants, gyms, and some clothing stores.

I am now down to my last 50 bucks and I am constantly worrying about what I am going to do when that money is gone, How am I going to put gas in my car? How am I going to pay my credit card bill this month?

I have absolutely no idea.

I do know this though:

God has a plan. He has a purpose. My God is more than enough and He will supply all my needs. I know that there is a reason for this. His way is perfect and beautiful.

My prayer for you is that if you are going through a similar situation that your faith would be strengthened through this time of need.

Praying for you sweet friends.

Much love.

B