Refreshed.

REfreshed.

REfined.

REminded.

REevaluate.

After the mini vacation I just took this is how I feel.

I feel very refreshed from the time I had to think about who I am and what I was made for.

The past few months have been a very different transition for me, living with my aunt and uncle, starting a new job, making new friends, and finishing up with school. Its all been quite wonderful, but very difficult for me.

I feel like I've kind of just lost myself in my work and school.

I still love Jesus more than I ever have, but Its like I've forgotten what loving Him looks like.

How to love Him and love others.

I need to be teachable. I need to WANT to learn. To love to learn. I need to want to grow.

I feel like He is igniting something inside of me again. Its a very strange feeling, very different.

He is refining who I am and who I am to become.

He loves me and wants me to grow.

How exciting!

How refreshing!

Jesus loves me still, no matter what I have done. He has always and will always love me, and I cant even comprehend why.

AND!!!! HERE COMES THE AWESOME PART........

HE IS JEALOUS FOR ME.

He is.

He is jealous for me and for you. No other mans jealousy compares to HIS jealousy. He loves me more than any person ever will.

Praise the Lord.

Fight for Him to refresh and refine you.

Fight for YOUR joy!

Love you friends.

B

Wednesday.

Can. Not. Come. Any. Sooner.

So much to do.

So little time.

I am so excited.

Bama bound in T minus 1 day.

Christmas, Christmas oh sweet Christmas.

I am beyond myself in excitement for this incredible holiday.

Next Wednesday I get to take the 8(ish) hour drive to Alabama with my sweet sister and brother-in-law. Im pretty stoked because I haven't exactly spent quality time with either one of them since they got married, so it will be nice to have them all to myself for a good 8 hours each way.

I haven't been home in almost 5 months and that trip was very short.

When you have a little brother that has a growth spurt pretty much every week, 5 months is a long time. He is 3 now and on the fast road to looking 7. Its kind of scary. Can I just go ahead and let you know that I am completely and totally in love with this little guy. He has stolen my heart. I mean, look at him.

This is Jay and my dad cutting down the Christmas tree. Its been a tradition since my and Julie were really young to go cut down a tree in Silverhill, Alabama. I love to see my little brother carrying on the tradition.

So over the next couple days I may have to post random spuratic writing to just express the thrill of excitement that is in my system for going home. Life is so simple at home, all I have to do is be there and I am loved. I love my family. Seriously, they are awesome.

Hope all is well out there. Much love sisters and brothers.

B

Week 1-DONE!

I just finished my first week of the mini mester at school.

Woo hoo for me.

I think this is going to go by pretty fast considering I only have 2 days of school next week and 3 the next and then 4 and Im done.

Praise Jesus that this time in my life is coming to a fast end. Im very excited to say that I have one semester of college left. It is going to be a very trying time in my life but I am confident that I can handle it. It will be lots of long days and lots of frustration, but this too shall pass.

Thanks for all your prayers and support through this last year in my life. God has truly been faithful. :)

Love you guys!

B

Fast road to becoming a "real" adult.

1. One more semester of College! WOO HOO!
2. Paid of all my credit cards.
3. There is acutally money in my savings accout, and its over 100.00 buck! PTL!
4. I work more than I sleep.
5. I am thinking about "independent" things such as cell phones, apartments, insurance and 401Ks.

Thats the end of the list for today.
Im pretty stoked.
I love learning, well for today I do.

Much love sisters(and brothers),
B

Howdy Yall!

Merry Christmas!
Happy Holidays!
I can not believe that it is Christmas time already!
I am beyond myself with excitement. WHOOP!
First off, I can not believe how much my lifestyle has changed in the last month.
About a month ago I broke my computer charger and I thought it was going to be the death of me.
Not having my computer close by was such a scary thought. Not being able to check my facebook every hour(or 5 minutes-shhhh) was even scarier. For reals, I have been thrown into that group of young 20 somethings who is way to technologically dependent.
So, the charger broke and it was going to cost $80 bucks to replace. This little girl does not have an envelope labeled, "Emergency Computer Repairs", and so I had to deal, and still am.
I realize now how crazy I had become. I would come home every day from school and check my facebook and then check it again an hour later before I went to work just to see what so and so was doing, or if so and so had put new pictures up or something. Then I would come back another 4 hours later and check again, spending at least an hour on the computer for no reason.
What the heck?!?
The first 2 days seemed impossible. What was I going to do with my time?
What was I going to do at home?
Spend time with family?
Spend time with Jesus?
Spend more time at work?
Rest?
All of these things seemed so foreign.
I prayed that the Lord would hand me $80.00 to spend on the charger, and He did.
Then I went to the doctor, and had to get glasses. There goes that $80.00.
After a full month of not having my computer, its kind of nice.
I kind of am enjoying not knowing whats going on with every one around me. I still would love to have $1,000.00 purchase back, but God has totally shown me who I had become. I was becoming someone I hated. The "L" word was fastly approaching me, haunting me.
Then, there it was. I came home from school on a Tuesday afternoon and didn't have work scheduled, had nothing to watch, nothing to do really, so I slept. I took a 4 hour nap on a Tuesday afternoon and woke up to a terrible thought, I was.....I was....LAZY!
What the poo? GET UP!

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own, but you were bought with a price, therefore honor God with your body."

WOW!
Slap your face, WOW!
I hate conviction sometimes, well all the time almost. But, now I see it and am amazed at how it has taken this long for me to listen. I have had the knowledge, the wisdom and the direction for at least 3 years now, and now I decide to listen. Awesome!
I guess the saying is true, "better late then never".
Thank you Jesus.
Thank you for loving me despite my disobedience.
Praise the Lord for grace. WOW! Seriously, Praise God for grace.
His love is abundant.

Well, with all that said, Vaya con Dios. Go with God.
Much love to you brothers and sisters.
Enjoy this season with your family and friends.
Thank you Jesus for my incredible family and awesome friends!

Love!
B

Decisions.

Sometimes, you've just gotta make em.

Some are hard, some are easy, but they are all in your court, so you need to make them.

In the end, it may be the right one, but at least you made it.