Transparency.

For about all my life I have struggled about self image. You look at these stupid tabloids, internet and television and all the "pretty" girls get all the guys, the best jobs and everything they want, [so we think]. But then there's the slightly over weight girls who never get asked to a dance in high school, or cant fit into the cute clothes at the store. It is beyond frustrating. 

I've never struggled with if I was pretty or not. I know Im not an ugly girl. Christ made me, crafted me with His beautiful hands and I am what I am. 

But what Im not is in shape. 

I want to run and not get winded so fast. 

I want to go rock climbing with my man. 

I want to go to the beach and wear a cute bathing suit and feel good when I take my clothes off. 

I want to go wedding dress shopping and not be freaked out that they probably wont have dresses in my size to even try on. 

Im ready. 

Im tired of being tired. 

Im tired of the excuses. 

Im tired of saying Im going to do something and then hide when I fail. 

So, Im going to be transparent. 

Im going to try to be accountable to my blog. 

Im going to record my food, my exercise, my success and my failures. 

The number are a scary thing. 

Its 9:40pm and Im going to weigh myself. [I know you aren't supposed to weigh yourself at night, but I dont care, I want every number to change. Morning, noon or night.]

Please pray for me, for my success, and my growth. 

Here we go. EEEKKKKKKKK. :/

Starting weight: 191 lbs

Goal weight: 140 lbs

Total weight loss: 51 lbs

Food Journal for March 23, 2011

Breakfast: oatmeal cream pie. ( I know, weird, but it is all I could find)

                 grapes (about 15)

Lunch: 6 inch Turkey sandwich on wheat bread from Subway

             light mayo, mustard, american cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, salt/pepper, oil/vinegar

            -pop chips

Snack: Fun size kit kat

            tortillia

Dinner: 1/2 tilapia with crab meat

             1/2 cup of brocolli

Dessert: 3 tbs of vanilla ice cream

Work out: Ran/Jog/Walked for 30 minutes. 

SUCCESS for the DAY: I did not have one soda today. I did have a red bull this morning, but green tea and water were my friend today. I am so proud of myself. 

Alright. Now your turn. 

Have any of you struggled with the same thing I do? Do you have any tips? Any sort of encouragement would be extremely welcomed. :)

Thanks for "listening".

Much love people. 

B

Symptoms

For the past 4 months I have been in a constant cloud with my allergies. Every single morning and night I have a runny nose and a sneeze fest. Seriously its lame. I took zyrtec for a while but I think my body is immune to it. Do any of you have any suggestion as to what to take?
Thanks friends.

Much love,
B

Saturdays

Every single Saturday morning, I wake up, and all I want to do is put on my comfy nike shorts, tshirt and chacos and head to Target and walk around for an hour. Isn't that crazy? Thats all I want to do to start my day. I know that I have a long day ahead of me at work, but Target needed me this morning. So, a new makeup brush and mascara later and Im home. Heres to another day of selling flowers on this Valentines weekend. WOOHOO.

Much love people,
Britt

Dear St. Valentine,

Thank you for this beautiful holiday that I used to call "National Singles Awareness Day" and that is now "Happy 'Im in love' Day". Im thanking you now 3 days before this wonderful holiday because Im a florist and this is our biggest day and Im sure I wont like you very much on Monday. Thank you for thinking that you had something to do with the fact that I have a sweet man in my life, who I love dearly, its a good thought. Just so you know though, it was all Jesus. So, with all that said, Happy Friday.

Much love peoples,
Britt

I never blog anymore.

What the poop?
So much is going on right now and Im exhausted.
More to come...later.

Has decided....

That I am going to be more crafty this 2011.
I almost always work from the creative side of my brain.
Tomorrow I am going to make a Valentines wreath.
I am super excited about doing this.
I'll post pics tomorrow so you can see. :)
YAY YAY YAY!
Love,
B

New Years Resolutions

So, typically, I am not one for these "Resolutions". I don't like to make promises I can't keep. But, for some reason I have decided to make a few this year.
I feel like the Lord is teaching me lots lately. How to be calm, and content in the Lord, how to trust that He has a plan and how to remember what is right and wrong and try to remain in Him so that I please Him.
So here are a few of my resolutions.

1. Take care of myself, my body, my mind, my relationship with Jesus.


Oh, that kind of seems to sum it all up.
For sure, it all seems like a lot.
But, I know the Lord wants me to be a better person.
He desires Godliness.
I desire Him.

Love all you beautiful people.
B